We miss our friend.

We Partners in Hope have lots of friends we thanks for that however tonight we missed one of our friends at our meeting because he was not there and we don`t know where he is now.
When he was clean he was always at our thursday night meeting and went to church together and had fun together we love him so much though tonight he was not there and lately we haven`t seen him for few weeks, honestly now we worry about him and want to know and see him everything is okey to him.

Tonight we had a fun and good time with Santa however we also grieved about our friend.
We hope that he doesn`t miss this Christmas and comes back to God and to us before Christmas to come.

Thanks and have a good sleep.

See you at our house!!

Today I went to radio cafe in down town(actually I don`t know what street name is)
Because I wanted to see one of my friends, as I know he usted come there and spend time with people so I went to the cafe but he was not there.
And so I was a little bit disappointed for I have not seen him for few weeks therefore I wanted to know how he is doing and I wanted to invite him to come over to our house on Christmas day however I didn`t have a chance to talk to him today because of his absence there!!
Therefore I hope to see him before Christmas and tell him
`Come join us our Christmas party at out house(he knows where I live in), I want to celebrate this Christmas with you. I don`t want you to be alone(If you have a plan with your friends or family then I am happy about that but if you will be alone?!! then I want you to come to our house and have a good time with us.)`

I want to invite people who are alone and lonly in this season to our Christmas party.
Specially whom I have met in down town E side.
I go to down town Main and Haistings street and do prayer walk 3days a week then I can see many people who are on drug or alcohol and I also can see their struggles and loneliness hopeless on them. It gives me grief.
So I appreciate what Partners in Hope we are doing for those people during in this season
We have gifts for the people(we will bring the gifts to down town at Christmas Eve night and hand them out to the people) and party at our house on Christmas Eve and Christmas day even new year eve day, we don`t want the people to be alone or lonely we want to be with them as their family as their friends, therefore I wanted to see my friend today although I didn`t see him(Oh! I have his phone number then I can call him...^-^)

Anyway this is my today`s experience
Thanks and see you at our house when Christmas comes!!

(P.S : Of course, Elsie and we will work more for it but it`s our pleasure of you.!!^0^)

Oh! my enlish...!!! please give mercy on me..!!!

I am now staying up because tonight I had a coffee and the caffeine gave me no sleep.
So just now I read my writings again on my blog then I can see my English writings....
Oh! what a my English....!! although I knew that but anyway I feel Z.Z.Z...
Then I think `I need to work it out and hopefully whoever read my writings they can see what my experiences was rather than my English...
This is my new(?) hope to you...!!
Thanks and Merry and Happy Christmas~~^0^

I patted me on the back!! ^-^

Today I met one of my friends at Carnegie centre.
Actually this meeting was my suggestion to him.
Because whenever I saw him I could feel that he has looked like angry with something,
it gave me some thoughts about him so I would like to meet him and listen to his story so last week when I saw him at down town I told him carefully what I see in him and if he is okey then I want to meet him and hear about what it is, after listende to me he said `yes I can meet you and tell about it` therefore today I saw him at Carnegie and heard about a little bit of his life story. He was nice to me and shared his life journey honestly what he had gone through and where his life is now...
It was a good meeting and I enjoyed it and I also appreciated his openness toward me for I could feel his honesty while we had converstion.

Today I was happy for this meeting, the reason was generally it is not easy to tell our stories if we don`t trust the person and we don`t know how the person thinks after share our stories with him or her, however, today through this meeting I could pat me on the back and I said to myself `you are good and trustworthy it means he knew your care for him so he could share with his story!!`

It sound likes silly but I was encoureged by this and gave thanks to God for knowing me what kind person I am.
Thanks and this is today`s my story.

Have a good day!! ^0^

Christmas and motherhood

I am one of w2 members, thankfully God opened the door since June in this year.
As a w2 member I have been visiting the women who are in jail at Maple ledge.
I go there every other week on Monday night with many women who want to help those people.
I have enjoyed this visiting and made new friends there.

Last night in jail we had a Christmas party it was a good and everybody enjoyed the time.
And also Elsie took the gifts bags(over one hundreds bags) with her and gave it to the women there, when they had these they were happy and knew somebody cared for them they are not alone. It was a great opportunity to see how peoples` care for others(who are lost) can make the people (who are lost) feel different way `I am not alone, I am not abandoned because out there somebody thinks of me and care for me.` It was a really good experience to me.

However I also could have a sad experience the same day it means I could see some of the women who are mom they didn`t look happy and looked sad because they have missed their kids a lot, specially this Christmas season is not easy to be there as a mom.
In a little while, one of my friends whom I have visited since this October, she finally broke down and wept while we were watching a puppet play, for she has a 5years old son but she can not be
with him because she is now in jail and the party gave her some Christmas memory with son before.
When I saw her crying I did not know what to say and how to comfort her,
because I am not a mom and don`t have a kid, honestly I don`t know what motherhood is, how painful it was as a mom, of course at that moment I could say to her some good thing but I did not want to pretend to her `yes, I know your heart how painful is!`

Anyway at that time I wanted to comfort her so I told her ` you know what? you have next year Christmas because of that now you are here and learn how to be clean and sober and never again come back here and that bad things, am I right?` and then she responsed to me `yes, next year Christmas I will be with my son and I don`t want to come back here again.` after this conversation she went back to the gym(the party place) and participated the party.
And yet I knew she was still sad but she tried to be happy and enjoy it.

This was a my sad experience last night as well.
After jail on the way home I prayed to God his blessings for the women whom I saw the night at the party and their kids I also hoped that next year Christmas my friend will be with her son and have a happy Christmas.

This was my first Christmast party experience in jail with the women who need our care.

Thanks and happy Christmas.!!